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I got homework nearly everyday! Minus, the additional classes I enroll. I am officially busy and selfish.

up, up and away!

“Life isn’t Candy Land, it isn’t a fantasy, where you can create the perfect ending, and cue the music, and make people’s decisions for them. It’s reality. And reality is perverse and imperfect and it isn't fair, and the timing is never right, but you don’t get to run away from it into some safe little movie."

The above quote has got nothing to do with this post actually. Just something I wanna share. hehe. For some weird reason I felt very energetic today. But the head is still pounding.

I am not one to show my emotions. I may act like I don't care but deep down I do care. I don't trust people easily. Please be patient with me.

aching all over.. the mind is too..

I'm weaker at math now. Statistics and graphs weaken me. I don't really blame the topics though. I myself haven't been paying attention during the lesson. Over the past few days my head feels like it was bang-ed against the trash can. Yup, can. Should I blame it on the scorching-during the afternoon-sun? Hmm.. But it has been raining heavily for these past few days. Whatever it is it send my head spinning. Seriously. I had a hard time sleeping. Not balancing well. Talking crap! Poor closety is my victim of insomnia. Hur Hur.

Despite the pain. I manage to find a reason to have fun. Undying adoration for...Netball! (ps: and someone too)*grin. Went for my regular training with the girls. It was so much fun and too much screams.. Maybe I was exposed to ringing screams. That's the potential reason for my headache I guess?? Or maybe not.

To add the pain there's my Quran memorisation. I don't really know how does my new Quran teacher's syllabus work. And triple homeworks given during weekends. Hand in on Monday. Then, come a new set. Some may wonder "And I still have time to blog?" blogging is my break from this "madness"(According to Mr F). I need to let out my thoughts at least once a day. Ok, back to Quran lessons. It's stressing me out. What I usually did is I finish up the whole lot of surah. Then, I go for my gradings. Because, I will always forget the previous verse that I have memorised. But it's otherwise with this teacher in charge.

Maybe, I should just quit my other unnecessary yet important classes. But I can't. I'm not a quitter. and what more I don't feel pressured by this "madness"

I thought that my headache was because of the stress. But i've been having it regularly since early October. And that was way before this "madness" entertains me. I seemed to enjoy all the classes that I attend and enroll myself into. What cause the headache?

I hate scraped knees! It hurts! I can't bend it. *like Beckham* Boooo Huuuuu!!!! This is what happened when we are so into the games that we forgot to cool down afterwards. It cause aching to the joinings and muscle. Have a nice day people!!

me-time

I've been busy with classes that the only person I am in contact is closety and randy. How's the others doing eh? I totally shut off from the outside world. This is what happened when I am too occupied with classes that I don't even have the time to losen up. The only hing I do now is watch tv or surf the net. booo huuu!! *pathetic lah sey

Better

2008 is definitely better. Although death of the loved ones keep saddening me. How I wish they were there to see my achievements. To guide me from my failure. But I guess everything is not in our control. And, I have to move on. Keeping up with the pace of life. Everything is just in a whirl. It feels like it was just yesterday that I chatted with my alsagoffiatts. Hanging out with the crazy bunch of s***** dudes. Complaining to my mother. Hugging my dearest Kina. Laughing with Zaki. Lectured by Arasy. Comforting Fatin. Fighting with Khair. Fooling Groovie with my grandfather. But all good things do come to an end. Am just moving on with the flow of my life. Although my heart is aching to go back to that treasured moments.

Thunder.

Normally, I hate thunder but today's heavy rain somehow changed my mind. Gotta say I hate it but listening to it actually soothe me. I know I'm a weird person!

Bring the crap out of me.

I woke up with a smile on my face. Finally I managed to have the time to chat with closety. Not that I miss him, I just miss talking to him. =D Happy! Happy!

But the chat was strictly merepek sey! =p

I was wondering, what's up with the school bell? It's two minutes late. My bus usually arrive at the bus stop at 6 35pm. With the school dimissal bell rings at 6 32. I have only 3 minutes to reach the bus stop. Considering the traffic, it is impossible to get there exactly 3 minutes. Unless I am very lucky everyday. And with the precious 2 minutes, the hougangerz missed the earliest bus to get home. Reason I'm blogging this? I dunnoe. I just feel like I need to type something really, very, absolutely crappy.

I need to change, fast!

School has been great! 2008 is great! The new subjects look okay. Not much of work and stuff. Maybe, it is all introduction games. However, I am not comfortable with the new spectacles, tudung and uniform. Everything seem very, very wrong. And yes, Akir was right. *not was, is* I am getting selenge each day. hehehe. The spectacles can't stay put at my bridge. it keeps falling off and the pair makes me look gandmother-ish. I hate this new pair of spectacles!!!!!!!!!

The tudung sort of covering my eyes. And it makes my cheek bulge. that is so wrong. And not presentable. And I am uncomfortable. But anything else is just fine. Beyond fine, actually.

Anymore chocolate?

It's the first week of school days and I'm already sick! :'( Woke up with a very bad headache. Itchy throat. My mother blamed it on silat training. I hope I can still go for training. But I swear it wasn't the training. Maybe, I'm tired trying to adapt with the new schedule and such.

Anyways, I am hooked to this particular chocolate. I know I hate chocolates. But this chocolate makes me feel better when I am having fever. But, I haven't seen any of this type of chocolate being sold at any candyshop. =(

A B C

School re-opened yesterday. So to fellow students. Welcome Back to your respective school!! The teachers sure had plan their speech before they present them. Anyway, how come this year there's a lot more lecture rather than welcoming speech. And, the speech started just a few hours after the first "bell" *or whatever u call them* for Secondary Azkar.

Nothing much about school. Just the usual. Welcome speech, school regulations, same old stuff that we hear all over again. Tired of it? Well, I am not. It just amazed me how predictable teachers' welcome back speeches are. No offence eh, but that is true.

Remember 3A: "Sec 3 will either break you or make you" So let's show that we are the best of the best product that MAI has ever produced! Mwahahaha! Too much enthusiasm for the second day of school right? Well, what can I say.. I am in the best mood!

I survived!

Happy New Year everyone! Celebrated New Year with my ownself. Counting down til midnight arrives. At first, I was planning to go to Marina Bay to watch the fireworks. Just to cheer myself up for the new year. But then, thinking that my parents would probably flip out or would definitely fall asleep, I put that thought aside. Celebrating new year by myself is quite fun actually. Countdown alone. Watch late night movies alone. Snacking alone. I was so used to being alone anyways. But that was after Khair's unexpected death. Oh and did I tell you that not a single soul wish me a happy new year? But I was glad that they didn't actually. Oh yeah.. Lonely New Year Celebration. But, in a way I felt better because New Year is finally here! =D