KILL ME!!

I've been feeling crappy since Saturday, which is yesterday. Attended the syarahan and presented on stage. I didn't do my best though. I was the first participant to present!! and I freaked out!! Once I was on stage I search for Jojo, hoping that looking at her would calm me. But I didn't see her. I started to panic when my notes are not organise. I did memorise all of it on Friday. And was ready by Saturday morning. AAAARGH!! I was brain-dead. I didn't think. I looked at Ustazah Aini and miraculously I gain my confidence;)

But yeah, in the mid part of my presentation I forgot the quran verse. Well, actually it was playing in my head but somehow I didn't manage to say it out loud. The words can't escape from my lips. I felt as though I was bewitched. *scary..

After my presentation, I went staright to Ain and just lay on her shoulder. I felt like cying after looking at Ustazah Aini. I dissapoint her. Dissapoint my entire classmates that went there to support me. Oh, not forgetting they were scolded by my ex-teachers for seating/eating by the pavement. How embarrasing. I was embarrased of course! Not by my mates action. But by my ex-teachers behaviour.

Thanks to teacher Wardah I felt better after texting her. I find her words very comforting. Thanks Teacher=) and my classmates for supporting me.

I AM STILL FEELING CRAPPY THOUGH.

how I wish Khair was here to comfort me:'(