Somewhere in between

There's always sweetness in this bitterful life.

Tidal

It has been awhile now, and I am still wondering where to go.

Post-Exam Activities are keeping me busy. One after another, no break for me. I'm exhausted.

A state of indifference

I think nerds have a good life. Nothing to bother them except for examination or school or whatever that's school related. Which they have a higher probability to ace than me. They indulge themselves in books and educational things and find joy in them. I hardly find any joy these days.

Maybe I should try and talk to someone about this. But I don't think anybody will understand. They thought I have a good life. That I do, but had that is.

Fresh Dew

I feel like flying away. Far far away from this craziness. A place where noone knows me and cannot judge me, you know?

I wish that life could at least somehow be more simple and predictable but that would make it dull wouldn't it? But the uncertainty somehow amuse me. How people has changed over stupid reasons. Hurting others for their own happiness. I guess most people are unpredictable that way.

Since you won't care anymore, then why should I? There's no reason for me to stay if you keep pushing me away. I'm not going to waste my time and spare you my attention. I have other friends to care for.

Goodbye.

Raya Fever

STE is done and over! I hate last minute studying but I always find myself in that pit. It's over anyway. So, due to STE my jalan raya was delayed and I had that stupid eye disease for more than a week. I mean, who would want to go to Raya outings amidst the Exams right? That's just stupid.

But everything is fine now. I don't have conjuntivitis anymore and exam is over. The only thing that bothers me is that Raya is almost over, and I am so bumped that I just felt the heat now. Who's up for jalan raya anytime later?

Sheesh. That makes me feel like a weirdo.

Serenity

So I celebrated eid at Kuantan for the second time. There's no rush of excitement this year. I've always loved eid. This time it was just different. A little bland but still fun nonetheless. Despite suffering from a severe acute conjuctivitis I am still high on celebrating eid no matter how bland it may be or *painful. Raya pictures will be posted later.

Did I mention that STE is on this coming Monday? Yet I am having fun entertaining guests rather than cooped up in my untamed room studying.

Hello World

I'm still having problems with blogger. Damn you. Puase-puase buat orang marah. I somehow find myself indifferent about celebrating raya this year. Is it because geylang is densely boring this year?

masked

I think my muscles are cramp from sitting at home for a week. Seriously. There's nothing much to do really. I think I prefer going to school and kill time or learn something in the process then go home and sleep. Definitely better than being mom's helper. Which I'm not really consider I sleep almost 80% of the time spent at home. I caught someone's flu during IG. My body temperature was crazily high. It went as high as 40.0 at some point. I'm still having fever now but not as bad. I wonder who was sick that day. Because the others are sick too.

floating in the air

School is still very boring. I think I prefer the filthy streets of Geylang and that afternoon session. Do you know how hard it is for me to get up early in the morning? I am not a morning person and I love to SLEEP. I have to wake up at 5 15am every morning to get ready for school and get out from the house at 6 10am. All those while losing precious time to sleep. I know I'm terrible. But I love sleeping too much.

Tests are piling up and I'm too lazy to study for it.

Universal

A cool video that I found while watching some crap on youtube. I bet the editting was a killer!

1276m

Mount Ophir or simply known as Gunung Ledang to us was more than just a mountain. I guess we underestimated it. I thought it was just like climbing Bukit Timah or Mount Faber. But hell, it was worst. Our poor guide had to wait for us patiently and everly smiling at us with a meaningful smile.

Why, you ask?

Because we are the SLOWEST group and WORST group he ever guided. Let's just say we are too kecoh, complain alot and just too slow. Other climbers took 5 hours or 6 hours to reach the peak. But we took 6 hours to reach Checkpoint 6 - Gua Kambing. Pathetic much? But it was still fun and enjoyable. I'd love to go there again with the same group of people, however slow they maybe. They are still fun.

We instantly bonded after Mahirah got sick. She was feeling unwell and Faizal helped to carry her bag. Since then we all bonded. Mahirah's sickness might be a blessing in disguise. After that, more people got sick. The first hour was a torture for me. Almost everyone threw up. Hearing them emptying their guts made me want to throw up too! It was the most uncomfortable moment of my life. But I managed to stay strong and not throw up.

Ledang tested my patience and perseverance. I wonder why I couldn't endure silat training. Lack of passion maybe? Somehow I was leading all the way til we reach our dorm. Or silat training prepared me for that climb. Going downhill and uphill and all of those tiring stuff. Thank you Cik Fendi!

Uphill was challenging. Damn! They forgot to remind me that it's a mountain. A freaking mountain with rocks that you have to crawl to make your way up. And using ropes and ladders to support you. Lucky me for my rock climbing experience.

Unlucky us because it started raining when were descending. The others excluding me brought their poncho along. But I didn't. So I had to brace the coldness of the rain. Did i mention that Gunung Ledang is very cold? If i didn't it is verrryy Cold -with a capital C.

Cold and too much water is not a perfect combination when you are up in the mountains with absolutely no toilets whatsoever.

Since, there wasn't any toilets up there, we had to build one. Oh, You know what I mean. A portable-poncho-based toilet. What do you expect? It's a 12 hours ascend and descend. =p

Our motivation to keep on going was food. Good local food. "Teh Sarbat!" *inside joke, people*
Once we saw that the others are lagging behind we would shout their favourite food to motivate them. We expected to get kudos from them or at least an appreciation but boy were we wrong. Just as Kak Nisa located us she said "Pasal korang lah aku jatuh. Prata lah Ice Lemon Tea lah. Memekak je." Sedih eh?

Well for me to summarise the trip will be more than a post long. So I guess I better stop here before I bore you with it.

Ledang was a memorable experience for. Although I was dissapointed that I didn't summit that day, it was still enjoyable and unforgettable. To be that close to nature and Him. To meet wonderful people and bonded with them was truly a once in a lifetime experience. The others might give up to try and summit ledang. But I vow to return to Ledang and summit by any means.

Pakai helicopter pun helicopter lah.. =p

intensity

Training was hell after such a long time. I wasn't enjoying it at all. I felt dizzy which I never experience before. But I know it's worth my time and pain.

To my smugglers thank you for smuggling me in. You know who you are. =D

18

Happy Birthday Siti Az-Zahroh Effendi!!
I'm a little late I guess. heh.

drenched in sweats

I am so craving for this right now.

The weather is so Freaking HOT nowadays and my AC is not working. Tough Luck. :(

Stranger

I was watching Seven Pounds. The value of a life is incomparable. Lives that were broken couldn't be mended. I have to deal with the lives that I broke. Live and deal with the guilt. I couldn't turn back time. Nothing could be fixed. I can't take back all my words nor actions. I can only be forgiven. I'm Sorry.

americanized

I wanted to post this earlier. But I gotta go to school already. I didn't manage to watch the whole show though as I woke up late. Dammit! On the bright side, Kris Allen won! Yay!

moderation

Exam's over. Now what? It sucks that there'll be no post-exam activities this time. Instead of that, we have to go to school for normal lessons. Destress much?

euphoria, not.

I'm glad Mid-Year is Over. But I'm so freaking worried about my results. I think I did quite badly this year. Except for Maths. For the first time I think I could pass Paper 1. Err.. Paper 2 not so much. I'm hoping that the worst won't happen to me.

Brain Dead

I suck at Geography aand Comprehension. I really do. Oh and Chemistry too! I'm starting to suck at everything now.

A Family Affair

Congratulations Siti Syariati Sulaiman! We are all happy for you. *No that ribbon and flower wasn't part of her outfit. We decided to re-vamp her look after the ceremony.*

Bugs

Something is so wrong with my school. It seems like everyone got the flu. Even me. I thought I was never going to get it since the flu period is starting to fade away bidding our school goodbye. But man it just won't stop bugging us!

with very little hope.

I honestly have a bad feeling for my mid-year result. I'm failing chemistry. Badly I might add. I just don't get it however hard I studied, I often find the questions too difficult to understand. Maybe I didn't study hard enough. And if you ask me the infamous question "dah prepare blum?" I will answer no to you with a straight face. I am never ready for exams I procrastinate too much. Always regret it but always do it and definitely not proud of it.

Everything that makes a wedding.

I've been lazy and busy lately with school. It is just too hectic and rush-y. I have tons of everything to talk about but I just couldn't find the space to squeeze blogging.

It has been three weeks since Thoriq's wedding. I still have not updated the pictures yet in my multiply. We had tons of fun planning his wedding. From the dais to the decor to the arrangement of tables. Yes, we had to do it without professional help, I guess they do it a little different over there. Two sleepless nights and three gruelling days. I was so tired that I thought I might collapsed and be buried at the land of Pahang. No entertainment of all sorts except for our live radio programme with two very whacky Djs singing our song requests, terribly I might add. It cracked me up though. If only I tape it. Oh well. However tiresome that was I still had fun. I think our family deserve a round of applause and a treat to Swensens from the groom.

I just hope we didn't scare the bride. She looks scared to death. You see, my family is very loud, EXTREMELY loud. When we talk, we yell. We never talked, never. Her family is very well-mannered and polite. A nice bunch. Of course we are too. Throw in the loud factor and we might just be us.

Thoriq being the first to get married from our generation of course excite the makciks and even pakciks. When the makciks and pakciks are excited you get a house full of mad people. The frustration for perfection was screamed to the kids. I think we frighten a lot of people. Ah, weird family. I seriously think my family is weird. But what would I be without them?

Loud family+Shy bride+Cool groom+Crazy cousins+Hardworking volunteers+Creative people+Mad uncles and aunties+Caffeine+Live entertainment+Drapes and ribbons= A Perfect Wedding

Madness

I just had 3 tests today. Penat lah sey. March holiday is finally here! The much needed break. Even weekends is not enough! Damn. I have a feeling that I'll still be very tired and lazy-as-a-full-snake to go to school. STE is just a click away, I know there are still a few months but I don't think I'll be prepared by then. And the new 65% system is alright I guess though a little tiring but I'm not complaining any further because so far, so good.

Ok. Enough about school. The thought of it is giving me a bad headache, even panadol extra woouldn't work. This year, many of my friends and two of my cousins are getting engaged and married. I suddenly feel so old. The presence of a new cousin even freaks me. I really am getting old and I'm getting backaches often too. Stress? Overworked maybe? And it contrasts my usual posture. I'm slouching even more now. Well, at least according to my mother. Mothers are usually right, right? Or not.

Shut the world

I’ve been giving out chances every time and all you do is let me down. I wasn't sorry this time.

a little delayed

I know "Twilight season" has faded or at least fading. I was intrigued by everyone's enthusiasm about it. So, I went hunting for the book, which Fardiana gladly lend me hers. It was great! A little too ironic but it's great. A little too late, yeah?

I haven't been catching up with time and what's around me. Too indulged at home rotting away and gaining extra pound to my very small frame. I want to grow. Seriously! I've been this short since Primary 5. Skipping doesn't help at all. Damn. Genetic maybe? Surprisingly, it doesn't really bothers me that I am this short. I used to be bothered by it but I am more comfortable now.

My weekends are now very very mundane. I ought to win the most boring person in the world's award with a standing ovation. Saturdays, I'll be sleeping til very late at noon, then slack and snack and of course, eat. That's my problem. I couldn't be left thinking alone or I'll think too much. When I can't do anything about it I'll drown my thoughts with food. How pathetic. Sunday is the most predictable day in a week. I go for tuition at 8am. When I reached home I'll sleep. Wake up for netball which is very erratically regular.

Why am I boring you with my boring life?

The Color Red

Happy Valentine's Day to those celebrating!

According to Shafiqa, it's Friendship Day, whatever you say. It was really really sweet of her and a few others to buy donuts for everyone with a little note and so yesterday we had a "class party" during reccess.

Today, I had a "date" with Amalina to snapped scenic views for our portfolio. Guess what? Some desperate guys were giving away flowers. Yes yes, giving away not selling. Spreading the love kape? I can't help but to grabbed Ferrero Rocher for each of my family member just to remind them how much I cherish them and for the fun of it. I just adore the stuffs that gift shops sell during V-Day. Too adorable. *tapi kumpul habuk. Bleargh!

Thanks to our gentlemen I keep sneezing in the bus. Damn, I could've emptied a box of tissue right there and then. They smell strongly wonderful mix with the flowers scent, the bus could pass off as a mobile gift shop!

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Jamar Rogers!! didnt make it through!!! That is sad. He's been my favourite after his first audition and he didn't make it. Damn!

Wah I sounded so girly ley. Anyhow, today is a good day minus Rogers elimination of course. Everything is very bright and bubbly. No I idea what happened though. I feel like I'm floating.

*Dramatic much?

about time

It's been too long since I last updated. Been busy with homeworks and projects. It seems to me that I'm taking my O's this year and STE next year. The academic homework overloads the ukhrawi. And that scares me.

STE may not be somewhat important to some, but I think it is important that I ace in every examination that i sat or sitting for. But with the rate I'm going, I don't think that thought of mine exist in my reality.

School has been different. Really different. The absence of Student Council upsets me a little, I felt like I lost a leader. And new school rules and positions and a whole lot of other things, it's different. Maybe for the better? I don't really know. One thing I do LOVE about the new rules is that we have to get 65% for all tests, if we failed to meet the criteria we must sit for the test again.

However, all those stuff didn't really matter as I'm having lots of fun with my new classmates. Although I think that my former classmates and our new classmates has opposing opinions and err, clashing characters, we seems to blend very well. =) Oh, and please, oh please wish me well this year.

Wonderful World

A yet-to-be-named baby was born yesterday, noon or so. Congratulations to my aunt and uncle.

=D Finally a girl! Although that means she might take my 'tiara' for being the youngest girl in the family, but I don't mind. We need more girls in our very big family anyway.

what day is today?

Dammit!!! I missed silat today.

The Art of January

January makes everything seem simple. It wasn't hectic nor chaotic. It was truly blissful. But nothing seems to be what it seems right?

As days went, we're flawed with mistakes and failures, scarred with hurt and anger. But there are also things that touched our lives, painting smiles on our faces whenever we reminisce the memories. Those moments erased the ugli-ness of life. =)

It is always a good beginning every year. Just like a novel. Therefore, I always thought that being born in January is a joy. Everything is so simple and cheery. We are all hoping for the best in the months to come and still very enthusiastic with new year resolutions. Most are still optimistic with our own vision.

So, be happy and thankful January babies!

Happy Birthday Muzakkir!

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Happy Belated Birthday Fatin Masyani!

just another year.

Happy New Year! A little too late huh? It's 3rd of January, already? Time really flies fast. I'm in sec 4 now. Damn. Forced to grow and catch up with the pace. I thought I am still a twelve year old girl with my yellow skirt and white kurung. Ah! Good old days. I don't mind going back to those days. =)

First day of school was somewhat not exciting as it falls on Friday. Friday is the most mundane day. Though there are lesser periods but the flow of the day has always been dull. The new principal seems cool, although Syahirah finds him a wee bit weird? Not too sure about that, I'll observe him more in the days to come. Haha. Isn't it odd? Observing your principal. I think I'm a little too observant. I should stop.

First day was a bit different from the previous years. More group discussion thingy. It wasn't exciting but it wasn't boring either. It was an okay orientation. Maybe it's the fact that school re-opens on Friday. Now I'm in a do-nothing-and laze-around-to gain-weight-mood again. Sigh!!