Don't if you Can't

If you can't fulfil your promise. Don't bother to make one. I was just learning to trust people again, but you pulled me down into that little miserable life of yours. Anyways, you left me. It's predictable isn't it? You come and you go. Come back and hope everything to be normal again. Well, you know what? I ain't gonna let you break me.

And to the one who promised to be like him. I told you not to promise me that. But you were willing to take the risk. Well, see what happened? I think you actually forgot your promise. You may not even remember it.

All the best in the near future!

love and its kuncu2.

Specially for people like my age:

Love. What is the true meaning of it actually? Is it showing your affection towards the opposite gender or a feeling that makes you happy? many defined love. And all of it are true. But, how do we differentiate love, crush, admire, adore and anything related to it? Some people just mix it up together and call it true love. But after awhile, they found out that this person is not the right one for them. Left the person in distraught.

Sometimes we fight for the one we loved, only to find out they are not in love with us. Sometimes we chase them around, when we won their heart we don't know what else to do. Sometimes we put our hopes high, taller than the Eiffel Tower. Only to watch them crumbling down.

"Do not search for love, Let it come to you"

That's the most popular quote. But do we actually agree with it? From what I observed, my friends who agreed with that quote doesn't practice what they preach. Why search for your true love as early as your teenage life. We still have a long way to go. Very long indeed. Some work hard to search for true love. To rationalize, Just like what I said earlier how do you know that person is the right one for you. How are you going to support her when you can't support your ownself. At a young age our emotions are still unstable. Why search hard for it when Allah has already promise to pair up the Sholihaat with Sholihiin and the bad, likewise.

Maybe, all this thing about searching for love is just an obstacle for us to believe in HIS words. I watched every single love-struck-friends of mine crumbled down. They can't focus. They are blinded in their own fantasy that they forgot about reality. Fantasize to live forever with their true love happily ever after. Now, tell me how you are going to live happily ever after, when you do not obtain a good result to support your true love. (In other words that means, you can't get a good job without obtaining a good result)

I think I have write enough about this. Pardon me if this entry somehow hurt you in any ways. I just need to let it out because I can't let it out to the appointed people in my life. Btw, It is weird thinking about it in the middle of the night. It's like I'm having a major I'm-in-love-and-I-can't-help it-crisis. Thanks to my friends who dealt with this. They inspired me to reflect on this thingy deeply. =)

wee!

Yesterday was a bright sunny day. I thought the weather would stay just like that throughout the day. While accompanying my auntie to Mendaki (more like babysitting her pride and joy), We decided to go to east Coast Park to have lunch, cousin and sister dearest tagged along. At first, we decided to take the bus. After a few minutes of compromising, we just realised that the bus is only available during weekends. So we walked through the tunnel. It was just a short distance. But poor auntie carrying an almost 3kg one month old baby is already panting once we reached the foodcourt. Imran is afraid of echoes. Hahaks! We were talking in the tunnel, of course echoe can be heard. Everytime when echoes occured he will hold on tight to the nearest hand he could grasp. Should have take his scared-face picture and show him when his older.

During our lunch the rain started to pour. Aaaaaaaargh! Since it's a weekday I was just thinking to sit on the soft sand along the beach while waiting for my mom to pick us up. But it seem that the weather envy myself. Hmph! We shelter ourselves at the nearby hut. But little Imran is getting naughty-er by the day he started to monkey-ing around, destroying abandoned sand castles and chasing birds. The cousins had nothing better to do but to guard him to stay put in the hut. Haiya! Anyways, once the rain started to ease, niat dihatiku akhirnya tercapai. wee!

rejuvenated? oooh yeah!!

Indonesia Trip was cancelled.. Booo huuu! =(

But, but, my parents are generous to repay it by paying my uncle a visit at Kuantan. Hence, I celebrated my EidulAdha at Kuantan. Gotta be honest that am not too ecstatic about that. I spent last year's Adha there, this year's EidulFithrie there, This year's Eid. There too. To some, its a no big deal. But for me, celebrating Eid with fellow cousins, uncles and aunties in Singapore is a big deal. We can sense the kecoh-ness of the celebration already before we even reach my grandparent's house.

However frustrated i was, the celebration this time was otherwise *in Kuantan. Early in the morning, we went to the mosque, did our Solat then documenting the sacrifices, watching it make us laugh so hard. Hasbi *my cousin* Put on a brave act and snatched the rope a way from an old man. But then, when the cow is getting nearer and was escaping from the rope with a great force he let go of the rope and run like a *cough2* pondan. After the sacrifices, we go back to my uncle's house then eat. We spent half of the afternoon sleeping. Ah yes! It's a bliss. Sleep is my treasure nowadays. too precious. More precious than anything else.

Okay.. Let's skip to the most enjoyable part of this trip.

Since the boys *my cousins* volunteered with the sacrifices, my uncle treat us to go to the Waterfall, if, the weather is bright! weeee heee!! Yah2, I go to Kuantan nearly every 3 months. But... I've not been to the waterfall since I was 4 or so. So, it has been 10 years since I last step into that charming yet cunning water. So, that morning, the heavy-sleeper woke up very early in the morning and didn't sleep after Subuh. What a miracle! At about 10am we reached the waterfall, and the fun begins! Let the pictures do the talking. You have to experience it to understand what i'm talking about. Although i experienced a near-drowned incident it is still fun. Thats the kind of adventure I would love to experience. No pain no gain.

I was late for tuition today. And it ruined my whole day!
I was snappy at every little things. And I hate it!

2008!

2007 is horrible. There were some wonderful moments but dull, sad, terrible, lonely, miserable moments clouds the wonderful moments. I hardly ever remember those wonderful moments. Just the feeling remain. But i'll survive 2007. December has yet to go through.

Whatever it is, I just want 2007 to leave ASAP! Hopefully 2008 will be a better year InsyaAllah. Anyways I hate my new spectacles! It makes me look nerdy. The frameless one got broken. hehe. Besides, i've been using it for 2 years now. And, so far that was a record for me since most of my spectacles doesn't survive for more than 7 months. this one is lucky!

way too long

I am so sorry. I'm just afraid I might put him above, you.

=D

Council Camp is finally over. I can say that I fit in very well in my group. I was much comfortable in this year's group than last year's. The camp was great! Although it doesn't level up to my expectation it was still great. I love the accomodation! Please, please, please make it a tradition! Dun listen to the survival mode suggestion. Hahaks! *eh the words rhyme lah!* The most challenging activity would be guarding our flag and snatching others. I forgot what it's call lah. Poor Sir Nash was scolded by Izzul. During this period also my headache menjadi-jadi. Actually it was there since afternoon. That's the reason why I'm a tad quiet.

The camp is not physically challenging. I dun get it why too many coucillors are injured. And some brags about it. I did feel the pain too. It's a muscle ache, so? What's the big deal? My group members experience it too but they are strong enough to get through with the camp. Well done guys! Maybe, the upcoming camp should test our endurance. It's ok to complain and stuff but please dun whine. If you know it'll be tough and you can't handle it then better off at home. Dun waste ur parents money. I understand those injured. But I dun understand those who whined. Ur a councillor toughen up a bit.

However fantastic-al the camp was, I could die of thirst! The food is sufficient. But the amount of water was tooooooooo little. Not enough. This is a feedback not whining. Hahaks!

I haven't had a full rest after the camp. The day after, I have my Maths classes already. And I slept in class. How embarassing! My tutor was calling me but I didn't reply him. Nabil and his sister is already laughing at me. I think my tuition-mates realised that I was asleep. Today, had netball practice. Which i waited for hours for the ball and captain to arrive. I was left alone at the court for nearly 2 hours! Herk! Herk! Herk! Closety came up with the idea that my teammates are pulling a prank. Nice one closefriend. Played only for about 45 minutes until the rain keeps pouring up til this hour. I hate December! It's always pouring. But everything is not in our will right? We don't have power to control over things. We don't have power to control people's heart nor their mind. Right closety?

~Am dissapointed but still living happily~ =D