"Hold on to the light that guides you, Hold on to the air that cools you"~Khairul

I'm holding on to your words best friend. =D

sometimes it is hard to do the right thing.

Priority. Which is more important? Knowledge? Survival? Friends? Family? Music? Luxury? Huh!~ There were times when we get all confused about it. Or maybe it is just me who get all confused.



Between friends and family. How do you know that your friends are more trustworthy than your family? Are you certain about mixing with the right crowd? There's a saying that our friend is the reflection of us. If we mix around with bad company, coincidently people will judge us as one of them.

Sometimes it is hard to do the right thing.

Its still Raya month lahs!

exam season has started. and I predict my Maths tutor will get infected by the exam fever. Why is it that every time exam season visit the school, I will have a very bad fever? Just like last year's and this year's mid-year. Nevermind, I'll bear the consequnces.

I haven't studied a single word from any textbook. well, except for Maths and Fiqh. I just love maths too much lahs!! Its really fun.

I'm slacking science. Anyone care to teach?

"aku nak balik... balik asal"

"Nanti Raya aku nak balik.. Balik asal" and indeed, his wish came true. My beloved grandfather passed away yesterday morning at 3am. 3rd Syawal, 3rd day of Raya, 3am in the morning. I felt so alone and lost when he's gone. Thanks to Ain for comforting me.

My grandfather meant alot to me. he's the one who taught me how to ride the bicycle. He's the one who got me addicted to Geylang's foodcourt. And. He's the one who adds up my pocket money.

When the nurse called us at 2+++++am my heart suddenly sank. She didn't inform us that granddad was in the verge of death. When we reached the hospital it was already 3am. she informed us that grandfather was gone. Forever. Never coming back.

He opened his eyes on the 1st day of syawal. But was on pain killer (morphine) by the next day. I was content as I have the opportunity to at least accompany him at the hospital til his very last breath.

I was shocked as his condition was progressing on the last day of Ramadhan. But stagnant on the 2nd day of Syawal. I didn't expect him to leave us so soon. But if it's the best for him then I have nothing else to say. Besides, it is time for him to leave after 82 years of serving Allah.

His departure was calm and peaceful. He even had a smile on his face.

*I wish closety was there*

=D

its the 25th of Ramadhan already! I have yet to bake cookies, buy new shoes and clothes! I'll be dead by the end of this month. Slept for 2 hours everyday. Only God knows what I did during the wee hours. *sigh*

Went to Joo Chiat to shop for Raya needs. But as usual, nothing interest me. The clothes aren't as gorgeous as last year's. This year, practically all boutiques sell the same design. I hope I can find something different before Raya. I have yet to check out the bazaar. Although I drop by there nearly every day after school, but I have not check out the clothes section, carpets, accessories and lots of other stuff... Looking forward to go there with my mom. Mom ain't a shopaholic, but once she's in the mood. She would buy what she likes. Hees.

Talking about Raya... Closety's last day is drawing soon. Very soon indeed. Strange thing about it, I'm not sad. One of his friends, are already brooding about it which I find it quite riddiculous. I'm not criticising, just stating my view. =) Back to the riddiculous thingy-----> Kays, firstly,
-Why would you cry if you know you'll keep in touch?
-Why would you cry if you know he won't forget you?
-Why would you cry if you know he treasures you?

I've tried to comfort this particular person, but my effort doesn't seemed to pay off.

Hmmm... ok, ok I admit I was a little worried if he would forgets me... But for now I'll just live up the moment.

~Make this chapter better, afterall its storyline determines the ending of our life.

Random.

I miss my Zeda!!!

Eh, Raya-ing already?

Time flies as quick as the blink of an eye. It's the 21st of Ramadhan already. Next week is Eidul Fithrie. Wasn't looking forward to it. I wish Ramadhan would never leave us. I wish that everyday in the year is Ramadhan. There's so much blessings in this month. But do we deserve it? Do we even deserve to celebrate Eid?

Performing tahajjud is such a pleasure and bliss. I felt very peaceful performing it. For the first time in my life, I feel that HE is very, extremely near to me, to us. At least performing solat took my mind off of Khair's death. This is the second Eid without him being with us. I miss the late night phonecalls. We would call each other during Eid eve. Then, Kina will sleep talk on the phone. Hees.. Very Funny!! Well, Zaki has changed and we lost contact with him. Kina is upset over something that we couldn't figure out. I guess, I'll be celebrating Eid with Ash alone. Although we aren't in good terms with the other two, we still treasure them more than anything else in the whole wide world. =D

Wokey, stop talking about Raya Ruquiyah!

So far, Ramadhan month is enjoyable. Hougangerz dropped by Geylang Bazaar nearly every single day. Since we happened to pass by there a lot, it's a waste not dropping by. Hees.

~I've been consistantly performing Tarawih which is quite an achievement for me. Yay-ness!!

I neeeed Sleeeep!!

It's 2am in the morning.. well, nearly to 3 am. I can't sleep. The parents went to Mustaffa Centre to buy food, perhaps? With that pirana at home, hmph.. Mother will be busy shopping for food. Anyways, after that deathly nightmare I haven't been sleeping well for 4 days. Even during I'tikaf night. *HUGE SIGH* My muscles are aching, skull is thumping. I still Can't sleep!! Glad I had a whole day sleep after the i'tikaf programme but after that, I AM back to sleeping disorder. well, I heard this shorten our lifespan?? Is it correct?? Whatever it is I just want to have my night life back. Oh Allah! Pls Grant me my wish. Ameeen!

Home is a wreck. It's in huge mess! Furniture in and out. If it's not Zahroh's idea to paint the room, mother won't put on her designing cap on. And now, she does. Glad that Sis Dearest is regretting it.

Tomorrow schooling. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeergh!! Gotta face that new teacher. Can't stand him. I soooooo baaaaaadly want my old teacher baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!! But for now I'll live with it and follow the flow. But complaints won't hurt right? School is the last place I would think of now. It used to be peaceful. But now with the new teacher screaming, yelling, bullying, slamming habit it's not my second home anymore. Plus, the primary students noise. There's no wonder why Loudspeaker has hearing problem.

It still survive.

The Best of friendship doesn't come when your together, it comes when your apart. You realised that despite the distance and silence, the friendship still survives. =D

~Couldn't agree more.