Wahh!!

I've been wondering. A lot of Indonesian Friendster users added me in their friends' list. I'm getting paranoid already.

~worried about Jojo

KILL ME!!

I've been feeling crappy since Saturday, which is yesterday. Attended the syarahan and presented on stage. I didn't do my best though. I was the first participant to present!! and I freaked out!! Once I was on stage I search for Jojo, hoping that looking at her would calm me. But I didn't see her. I started to panic when my notes are not organise. I did memorise all of it on Friday. And was ready by Saturday morning. AAAARGH!! I was brain-dead. I didn't think. I looked at Ustazah Aini and miraculously I gain my confidence;)

But yeah, in the mid part of my presentation I forgot the quran verse. Well, actually it was playing in my head but somehow I didn't manage to say it out loud. The words can't escape from my lips. I felt as though I was bewitched. *scary..

After my presentation, I went staright to Ain and just lay on her shoulder. I felt like cying after looking at Ustazah Aini. I dissapoint her. Dissapoint my entire classmates that went there to support me. Oh, not forgetting they were scolded by my ex-teachers for seating/eating by the pavement. How embarrasing. I was embarrased of course! Not by my mates action. But by my ex-teachers behaviour.

Thanks to teacher Wardah I felt better after texting her. I find her words very comforting. Thanks Teacher=) and my classmates for supporting me.

I AM STILL FEELING CRAPPY THOUGH.

how I wish Khair was here to comfort me:'(

Double the Pain! Ouch!

Futsal was great, I guess. Attempted a few shots but its either missed or catched. Booo Huuu! Soo Sad... It was my first, playing the futsal game. Fyi I never kick a ball before. Well, maybe I have, during my early childhood. Hee *LAME*

Kicking balls, playing aggressively, focus.. and my team was pretty great. But luck is not on our side that day. We only scored a one for the first game. Once we go against the Red House we were pretty flat. No battery charger *in other word that means water and yes! no Food!*. One of the players was aggressive oh no, no.. She was violent. Hee. But she played very well. Hit me a few times but I know it wasn't an intended blow..... right?

Anyways, Asmah didn't turn up at breakfast=(

And, I was LATE!! AAARgh!! I hate being LATE!! I love to be Punctual! But i was LATE!! EEEEii... I was pissed off.. And losing is not even helping.. Hiyaaa!! Not only was I late for breakfast, I was late for school too.. The day is ruined by the freaking late-ness that I encounter, or rather I caused is to happen. I had a bad day!!!

Bad to Worse when the tournament ended @ 11+++ Nearly 12, Despite the little time we have. We, *2A girls* are determined to take a shower. To refresh our body, mind and soul *k, out of topic* . We started hunting down for the changing room. We decided to use the Swimming Complex but we need to pay 50 cents for entrance. Not worthy. We went to the stadium but we need to pay. And lastly, we tried the Badminton Hall. And, finally after about 15 mins of searching we found a good changing room and its FREE!!!

After the shower we went to school and we were 15 mins late. However, some of the players reached school at 2pm *melampau*
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Badly want it

The pressure is on!! Futsal match/tournament tomorrow. First thing in the morning. I have a breakfast date with the Hougangerz-Ain, Ashie, Sis dearest and Sis Qamar.. Same darn place. The infamous MacDonald's!! I'll try to be punctual. Hee.
I haven't been a punctual person since the past few days. Wonder why.. Geez..

Oh Nooooo!!
Had my Fiqh test today. Argh! It seemed that my suggestion hadn't been taken seriously, yeah.. =(
I still memorise it despite having a protest. LOL. But of course it's a last minute revision. And trying to speed things up by skipping a few words *which I think could gain me at least half a mark*
Oh if you think I purposely did this. You are Damn Right!! Congratulations!!

Wee!!

I have finish it!!! Wee!! It's finally done and finalised!!

Yeah Bebeh! No sleepless night anymore!!

1 more week to go and I am already feeling nervous oh no not nervous.... PETRIFIED!

What if I embarras myself on stage?

What if I forgot the words?

Bleargh!! I hate this feeling.. Wek! Wek!

Must memorise the text and remember it forever!!

Must memorise Fiqh too~ having test on Monday!!

Hey,,, wait up.... I should be excused from tests right?? I am representing the school in this competition, mind you..

That's a brilliant suggestion ain't it?

It will last

Read Jojo's blog. I was touched by her words. How she still remembers me and cherish the friendship we had. And yeah, how i wish i could reverse time. I would still be stuck in the yellow skirt. I would still be stuck in the school I loved. Am I regretting the choice i made? I don't know. Maybe I did. But this is the path that I chose. I can't look back. I can't turn back. Carry on with the flow, thats what i'm trying to do...=)

Missing Jojo, Caca, Kinah, Far, Wanie, Nana, Zul, Dayah, Firah, Julaihah, Jalidah, Farhana, Muslihah, Atikah, Fizah, Hasmah and the whole sec 1 of '06.

Hugs and Kisses
I miss Jojo and Caca Terribly!!

If only I could

Betapa malangnya aku, yang tenggelam dalam salahku

Laksana tawanan, tanpa tali dan belenggu

Apa dayaku kini, setelah habis upayaku

Kala sayap terbentang kukatakan terbanglah wahai diriku

-Ibnu al-Jauziy

Head over Heels

I'm so in Love with Linkin Park!! I love them and now I love them even more!! Weee!! Weee!! Although their Latest album was a little dissapointing lah.. The latest album somehow was stripped.. No hard core Rock for my ears

I need a lucky charm

Woke up early for tuition today. FilHaq was cranky today when I reached my tutor's place. He was itchy all over and seek his mother's attention in all kind of ways but to no vail. Hehe, sorry kiddo had your mamma's attention first! Anyways I only had an hour session then off to school. Oh and yes I am hyper and energetic today. I didn't sleep in Ustaz AshBurn's period today. That is a good sign right? Since I switched place I felt so sleepy.. Maybe the previous owner of the desk is always sleepy and therefor I am affected by his sleepiness.. Ok, superstitious *astaghfirullah*... Oh and previous-owner-of the desk. No hard feelings ait if you happened to read my blog. I was just joking. Just to spice things up. Hehe.

Miss Netball!! Miss the girls!! Booo huuuu!! When are we having training again? It has been a long break since exam. No, no since I got injured.. Oh and gals my wrist is better now.. Don't worry.. I remembered the first tournament we had. We go head to head with the Bowen Gals, Unfortunately we lost. Then, with Seri as our shooter we thought we had a brighter "future" but she disappoints us.. and in the end we lost with a terrible number of shots.. That hurts.. Losing hurts.. But we all know that Seri had tried her best.. But she's not the perfect shooter and the Captain and co-captain changed her position to a defender.. And Asma' *which is the captain herself* decided to take up the shooting challenge. And as I had state in my previous post, she was shining on court. She has a great chemistry with the Wing Attacker.. And boy was she glittering that glorious day.. I also remember the moments we had our disagreement with once-a-troublemaker. We had a fight and we get rid of her from the team. No doubt she's the best trainee during training but she ain't the best player on court. *ouch*.. Zillion apologies..

I think i talked a lot about netball. Sorry to bore you dear readers.

SICKENING!!

Why are you treating me this way? Hadn't I apologised? Haizz.. It's hard to understand the NEW you.. Oh or rather the real you, mate..

Ooops!

2 more weeks of preparation for the competition. Ustzh Aini has been a great help. If I win this competition all credits go to her. Oh! and good news, I have supporters for this competition. Hehe. *Ni mcm baru semangat babe!

Live Earth.

I guess saving the Earth from climate crisis is easier than we all thought it is. Simply wear green to show that you care. They may wear green to show that they care but did they take action to show that they care? You may never know. I wear green every Monday to Friday for more than 5 hours but does that mean I care for the Earth. If I ask a commuter "Do you think I care for the Earth?" That Commuter will look at me and say "I don't think so.. Because you are wearing school uniform meaning you are forced to wear green" Get the picture?

Ridiculous. Then up came the concert for it for over 24hours. Conserve energy larh! They are wasting electricity. They will need tons and tons of lights and blasting speakers to make the concert successful, all those excluding the instruments they need. The large screen and a whole lot more. If one bulb need *dunnoe how many volt* Imagine a few hundreds more lighting up the stage for more than 24 hours. Hiyaa! Pestering people to SWITCH but they themselves does the same thing. I caught a glimpse of Madonna's performance, She was saying "I know we are conserving energy and such, but for tonight I don't want you to conserve your energy let me see you jump!! Jump if you care for the Earth." There goes another stupid comment. If the Earth could talk it will definitely say this "Ouch you are hurting me. Stop jumping!!"

Less talk and show that you care by taking action. Not jumping up and down like idiots and definitely not by wearing green! Oh anyhow, the Earth is blue it is not green. Why in the world did they choose the colour green as the colour theme?

R.E.S.P.E.C.T

Is it wrong for us to comment on others behaviour? Is it wrong for us to voice out our opinion? How I wish free speech is allowed. Why is it that everything we do is wrong? Why do they have to watch every single step of ours? Why do they have to keep blaming us of things that are beyond our control? Or maybe not even our mistake? Why and why? Why can't they let go of the past issue even when they already gave us the ultimatum? Does all these question make sense to you right now? Does it happened to you?

I can't understand. It's confusing. There were times when You brace Us during difficult times. You were playing the supportive role. You guide Us through darkness by holding up a lantern that may not last long but, You give Us hope. You gave Us the trust. We know some mistakes can't be forgiven. But does that mean You have to keep blaming us of whatever that occurs. What happened to that supportive role of Urs? What happened to that lantern???

I can't afford to lose my friends. Nor am I afford to lose a teacher. But if this is how your treating Us, I'm sorry but You make me lose that trust. And that trust has already sunk in the deepest ocean.

I've been pestered

Gosh!! I'm missing the Ahmad Ibrahim's clan. Although they aren't exactly the people I would wanna spent my days with but what can I say?? I guess I'm stuck with them.. Fortunately for me, Bro Khairul and Bro Khalif gladly organised a gathering for the helpers and the youth wing members. I am very contented after that gathering *hee* Thanks Love ya lots!!

Phew! Three opportunities in less than a day!! First: I was chosen by the teachers to represent my school in a syarahan competition that will be held at Madrasah Al-Sagoff. Second: I was chosen by my English teacher widely known as Teacher Bazitah to represent my school in an essay competition. Third: I was chosen by my monitress Amalina to represent secondary two in a debate. However I only took up two challenges as all 3 will be happening in three straight weeks. and, I am very sure I would be dead by the end of July. I was quite taken aback by these news as I wasn't the best in my class nor am I the best in the school. But chances only came once. Having doubt in myself though. Hee.