I'm tired! Woke up early in the morning report for work at 8am. Yups! I got a job, just to fill in my boredom. Then, rush for Group meeting. So far I had a blast during our meet. Zulza with his constant pouting. !!Adik!! and her shy-ness. Kak Aini with her merepek-ness. Kak Arifah beind teased. Uwais and his never ending "thinking" face. Only three people attended today's meeting. But it was fun, still. We re-do our group cheer. Which after !!Adik!! complains that it is a little crappy. Well personally I think the cheer is crappy too, but it is out of the ordinary. Thats why I like it! Anyhow, Zulza and I re-do the cheer from head to toe. And it was pretty good. It's a combination of three songs. Look out for this "unique" yet "enjoyable" cheer councillors! and of course teachers too *duh!

well, holiday season is ending. we have at least a month to prepare for next year. Time fly very fast eh? I have to go to Bras Basah tomorrow to buy my textbooks. Hopefully someone is willing to accompany me. I hate going out alone. I've been busy babysitting Imran and his little brother too. That little kid grow up too fast. last time I check he was just learning how to walk. Today he's already running and jumping up and down the bed. Sigh! It's hard to keep up with him.

There's so many things bugging my mind. With closety not around, it just makes it harder for me to express myself. Yup2.. Thats how dependent I am. It's Closety's fault! Hees. Oh! btw, my sister is coming back from KL tonight. It's a school trip or something. I enjoy being alone at home during the day though. At least when she's not around I can sleep without the lights turn on. Personally, I think sleeping with the lights off is better. It took me hours to sleep when the lights are turn on. Thats the reason why I am constantly yawning during school hours and tutoring session.

Blogger sucks, for now!

Kan tgh holiday...?

Forget about the job application~ I actually got a job as a fliers distributor. The pay is quite ok.. working hours are from 5-9pm. Pay is $5 per hour. Called the person and the next hour... Taaa Daaaaa! i'm hired!! weee! But then... here comes the obstacle. Tuition will start soon. A-maths class is starting really soon, Pure science lessons will start soon. I have no idea how I am going to enjoy this holiday. Hmph! Plus, the weather is not so good these days. Blame me for dreaming to be a surgeon. Huh~ But chasing your dream is good right? Just like closety always said "Believe in your dreams" Hahahaks! Well, I am not the focused kind.

Anyways, Say Hi to Keluarga Badrun's latest addition. Welcome to the world! brace yourself for an interesting adventure little one!

penatnyer!

School's out scream and shout!! is it better for me to take up a job or simply lay in bed all day or waste my allowance on clothes and shoes? Hmph!

Oh! Bedok sell the most affordable clothes lah sey! Very cheap! I bought a long sleeves dress for only $1 and it has great designs on it too.. Worth it! Gotta go shopping at bedok more rather than Bugis!

Regarding my results, I can't believe my grades. They're just tremendously surprising. I thought my form teacher miscalculated the marks.

I'm Over the Moon!

Back to the old days. It has been a long time since I played Ice & Water, Police and thief and hide-and-seek. Since we attended for the sexuality workshop, we missed the Indoor games completely. We get bored easily, and soon found out a rusty game from a childish brain to play hide-and-seek, shortly after we played ice & water, Police & thief and lots of other games that are meant for little children. Anyhow, I did enjoy myself today. =D

Until one of the teachers had to interrupt the fun of course. Don't they have anything better to do? Like, recording the students' grades into their report book or something?

Niwae, I found a weird sandwich today. Would you like to eat a sandwich filled with tuna, spicy tuna, chocolate, topped with thousand island. Sounds horrible rite? The look of it freaks me out. I bet, the Exco members ate that one. Hees!

If you are very curious. You might wanna try it out! MAI students speacialised in that particular sandwich. Have a taste, and tell me what it taste like. Maybe, it turns out to b good, than MAI will have another source of income than just having soo many Fridays waste for tabung jumaat. No hard feelings yar. Just stating my view ;)

There's many things I could do. But I could never hate you. I care about you too much.

AAAAAAAAAH!! Its Over!!

Joy!! Exam is Over!! Yay!!

Ok so, we got our papers back from the respective teachers. I'm not so proud of my performance this season. I suck Big Time! I failed my Science paper! 47/100?? What the heck?? I stayed up all night studying scince. Neglected my Ulumul Quran. Then I failed. Hmph! Just hope that I won't fail my Ulumul Quran. Which I think I will actually.

Hari Raya is almost over. But I just started to warm up. Haiya! Long time no blogging! I miss blogging so much. a lot of things happened in my life. Had a rough start this month. But things are ok now. I'm ok now. I guess I just hafta be a little patient.

"Hold on to the light that guides you, Hold on to the air that cools you"~Khairul

I'm holding on to your words best friend. =D

sometimes it is hard to do the right thing.

Priority. Which is more important? Knowledge? Survival? Friends? Family? Music? Luxury? Huh!~ There were times when we get all confused about it. Or maybe it is just me who get all confused.



Between friends and family. How do you know that your friends are more trustworthy than your family? Are you certain about mixing with the right crowd? There's a saying that our friend is the reflection of us. If we mix around with bad company, coincidently people will judge us as one of them.

Sometimes it is hard to do the right thing.

Its still Raya month lahs!

exam season has started. and I predict my Maths tutor will get infected by the exam fever. Why is it that every time exam season visit the school, I will have a very bad fever? Just like last year's and this year's mid-year. Nevermind, I'll bear the consequnces.

I haven't studied a single word from any textbook. well, except for Maths and Fiqh. I just love maths too much lahs!! Its really fun.

I'm slacking science. Anyone care to teach?

"aku nak balik... balik asal"

"Nanti Raya aku nak balik.. Balik asal" and indeed, his wish came true. My beloved grandfather passed away yesterday morning at 3am. 3rd Syawal, 3rd day of Raya, 3am in the morning. I felt so alone and lost when he's gone. Thanks to Ain for comforting me.

My grandfather meant alot to me. he's the one who taught me how to ride the bicycle. He's the one who got me addicted to Geylang's foodcourt. And. He's the one who adds up my pocket money.

When the nurse called us at 2+++++am my heart suddenly sank. She didn't inform us that granddad was in the verge of death. When we reached the hospital it was already 3am. she informed us that grandfather was gone. Forever. Never coming back.

He opened his eyes on the 1st day of syawal. But was on pain killer (morphine) by the next day. I was content as I have the opportunity to at least accompany him at the hospital til his very last breath.

I was shocked as his condition was progressing on the last day of Ramadhan. But stagnant on the 2nd day of Syawal. I didn't expect him to leave us so soon. But if it's the best for him then I have nothing else to say. Besides, it is time for him to leave after 82 years of serving Allah.

His departure was calm and peaceful. He even had a smile on his face.

*I wish closety was there*

=D

its the 25th of Ramadhan already! I have yet to bake cookies, buy new shoes and clothes! I'll be dead by the end of this month. Slept for 2 hours everyday. Only God knows what I did during the wee hours. *sigh*

Went to Joo Chiat to shop for Raya needs. But as usual, nothing interest me. The clothes aren't as gorgeous as last year's. This year, practically all boutiques sell the same design. I hope I can find something different before Raya. I have yet to check out the bazaar. Although I drop by there nearly every day after school, but I have not check out the clothes section, carpets, accessories and lots of other stuff... Looking forward to go there with my mom. Mom ain't a shopaholic, but once she's in the mood. She would buy what she likes. Hees.

Talking about Raya... Closety's last day is drawing soon. Very soon indeed. Strange thing about it, I'm not sad. One of his friends, are already brooding about it which I find it quite riddiculous. I'm not criticising, just stating my view. =) Back to the riddiculous thingy-----> Kays, firstly,
-Why would you cry if you know you'll keep in touch?
-Why would you cry if you know he won't forget you?
-Why would you cry if you know he treasures you?

I've tried to comfort this particular person, but my effort doesn't seemed to pay off.

Hmmm... ok, ok I admit I was a little worried if he would forgets me... But for now I'll just live up the moment.

~Make this chapter better, afterall its storyline determines the ending of our life.

Random.

I miss my Zeda!!!

Eh, Raya-ing already?

Time flies as quick as the blink of an eye. It's the 21st of Ramadhan already. Next week is Eidul Fithrie. Wasn't looking forward to it. I wish Ramadhan would never leave us. I wish that everyday in the year is Ramadhan. There's so much blessings in this month. But do we deserve it? Do we even deserve to celebrate Eid?

Performing tahajjud is such a pleasure and bliss. I felt very peaceful performing it. For the first time in my life, I feel that HE is very, extremely near to me, to us. At least performing solat took my mind off of Khair's death. This is the second Eid without him being with us. I miss the late night phonecalls. We would call each other during Eid eve. Then, Kina will sleep talk on the phone. Hees.. Very Funny!! Well, Zaki has changed and we lost contact with him. Kina is upset over something that we couldn't figure out. I guess, I'll be celebrating Eid with Ash alone. Although we aren't in good terms with the other two, we still treasure them more than anything else in the whole wide world. =D

Wokey, stop talking about Raya Ruquiyah!

So far, Ramadhan month is enjoyable. Hougangerz dropped by Geylang Bazaar nearly every single day. Since we happened to pass by there a lot, it's a waste not dropping by. Hees.

~I've been consistantly performing Tarawih which is quite an achievement for me. Yay-ness!!

I neeeed Sleeeep!!

It's 2am in the morning.. well, nearly to 3 am. I can't sleep. The parents went to Mustaffa Centre to buy food, perhaps? With that pirana at home, hmph.. Mother will be busy shopping for food. Anyways, after that deathly nightmare I haven't been sleeping well for 4 days. Even during I'tikaf night. *HUGE SIGH* My muscles are aching, skull is thumping. I still Can't sleep!! Glad I had a whole day sleep after the i'tikaf programme but after that, I AM back to sleeping disorder. well, I heard this shorten our lifespan?? Is it correct?? Whatever it is I just want to have my night life back. Oh Allah! Pls Grant me my wish. Ameeen!

Home is a wreck. It's in huge mess! Furniture in and out. If it's not Zahroh's idea to paint the room, mother won't put on her designing cap on. And now, she does. Glad that Sis Dearest is regretting it.

Tomorrow schooling. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeergh!! Gotta face that new teacher. Can't stand him. I soooooo baaaaaadly want my old teacher baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!! But for now I'll live with it and follow the flow. But complaints won't hurt right? School is the last place I would think of now. It used to be peaceful. But now with the new teacher screaming, yelling, bullying, slamming habit it's not my second home anymore. Plus, the primary students noise. There's no wonder why Loudspeaker has hearing problem.

It still survive.

The Best of friendship doesn't come when your together, it comes when your apart. You realised that despite the distance and silence, the friendship still survives. =D

~Couldn't agree more.

Changing....

Closety is trying hard to change, I guess. He constantly said "I'm not brooding anymore, stop calling me Broody" Kays. and he's really serious. I mean I gave him that nickname for joking sake. never did i imagine he took it seriously. Being happy is good right?

I am now miserable!!!
I love to sleep!! But lately, I wasn't enjoying it. I kept dreaming about this "sister", with her long, shiny hair. What shampoo did she use eh, that made her hair long, beautiful and shiny? It was a nightmare. Some nightmare could be ignored. Like nightmares about losing family members and good friends. But nightmares about supernatural are often hard to forget. I'm getting paranoid about it already. Every time I woke up from my sleep I was covered with sweats and tears. When I close my eyes again I saw her smiling at me!!! Me!!! ME!! It was horrible, eerie, scary and extremely horrible.. Well, I guess she wants to befriend me.. Islam teach us to tighten the bond, I guess she wanted to follow suit.

Oh Shoot!!

I just found out that Teacher Bazitah blog hop and maybe, happened to hop into mine. Uh Oh!!! And she recommended the whole class to create a blog. Hees. Luckily, I already own one. *kays, not important*

Anyway, I came across this particular mosque Buletin Board and found something very interesting. It says about Solat Tasbih and such. I wonder if solat tasbih is legal in the Book of Fiqh. I never came across this Solat before. Maybe it's bid'ah perhaps? The name is weird though. Hees.

Oh! We had a very, very interesting presentation by Sakinah's group during english period *since teacher Bazitah has been reading my blog, I have to praise how great english period was* Hahahaks! Kidding2.. Gotta wait for the paper to be distributed then, I could share it with you guys aitz.. hang in there.. LOL!

~Ah yes! Ignorance is bliss! But is it, really is?

Sick of it or just tired?

I hate it when people said they understood my situation but a few seconds later they get infuriated and burst out like an atomic bomb. Hello?? Excuse me?? do you want to help me or not?? Or you simply don't care?? If you don't care than scram off!! Cause I don't need people like you in my life. Hypocritical *toot*. Minutes earlier you sounded very optimistic but the next second you get all tired and sick of hearing my ramblings. and again, if you don't wanna help just tell me. Whats your problem? It's not like your so great that I just hang on to you for support. I have better friends than you. Your just noone in my life. But you happened to stick with me. Which caused me to fall in to your circle of trust. I thought I could trust you. Your just like the others that simply don't care.

Fyi, you don't even know that I knew your evil twin. double-faced *toot*.
You know what? You just got BUSTED! I knew it. Your just too good to be true. No, thank you for your fake friendship mate.

I Love Math!!

Learnt new topic today in maths class. Set Language and Notation. It was Fun! Just like what teacher Wardah told us. My class been buzzing since the first period til the last. *Mcm tak puase bdk2 nie* Buzz like a bee..

Late! Late! Late! Eh, must serve detention or not? hmph! Nevermind, it's fasting month so I'll just skip it. Maybe, I need an alarm clock too not just Asmah ~the menyemak dlm semak! thanks to Arifah for replacing me for my duties. Hees. Supposed to do gate duties today, since i'm late Arifah has to replace me. I guess I'll fill in her's during Thursday. ~Haizz *Hate gate duties when I started to reach school late.

Missing.

In the Memory of Khairul